The real me


Tell me what you yearn for and I shall tell you who you are. We are what we reach for, the idealized image that drives our wandering.

James Hillman

Oh James Hillman, you are so wise. Who would I be if I could create the idealized version of myself?

I yearn for freedom in my day and in my life. Sometimes when the day is moving along and I’m in a meeting, I’ll gaze out the window and imagine myself making a me-shaped hole in the wall much like you have seen in a cartoon.

I yearn for a feeling at the end of the day of a job well done and of having made at least a small dent in making the world a better place.

I yearn for a place I can make an impact, be heard and respected, and interact with like-minded people.

I yearn for a version of myself that is not so stressed that 7:00 seems like a great time to go to bed. Where I don’t wake up in the middle of the night wondering about some litigation or observation that is pending. Where I don’t eat an entire lunch and look down and not remember what it was because I ate it so quickly. Where I don’t lose patience for my own family because I’ve spent all day dealing with unreasonableness.

I yearn to be calm and healthy and centered. I’d love to spend my days working towards an attainable goal, no matter how difficult. I want to have time and energy left over to write, and listen to the people I love and laugh a bit. At the end of the day I’d like to be able to say “Now that was a good day” and mean it.

I’d love to hear how others were able to take the leap of faith to become their “real self”

Seek out that particular mental attribute which makes you feel most deeply and vitally alive, along with which comes the inner voice which says, ‘This is the real me,’ and when you have found that attitude, follow it.

William James

About Magnolia Beginnings

Just when you think you have it all down it changes again or... “Reshaping life! People who can say that have never understood a thing about life—they have never felt its breath, its heartbeat—however much they have seen or done. They look on it as a lump of raw material that needs to be processed by them, to be ennobled by their touch. But life is never a material, a substance to be molded. If you want to know, life is the principle of self-renewal, it is constantly renewing and remaking and changing and transfiguring itself, it is infinitely beyond your or my obtuse theories about it.” ― Boris Pasternak, Doctor Zhivago

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  1. This is beautiful. I am still working on finding the courage to take that leap to become my real self, I think. I need to “be” more and “do” less. But I can really relate to your yearnings. Thanks for sharing.

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